The Storm

Looking down,
Bright light flashing in the background,
Distant sounds breaking through the silence,
Dark skies surrounding every presence...

...looking up,
Brilliant glimmers of light catching my eyes,
Blasting thunder fascinating my ears,
Skies no longer dull but embellished with ravishing colours.

Maybe the storm we're facing is making everything seem dull, maybe we don't want to see the little messages it's trying to point out to us... but maybe, just maybe, what if they could be of meaning to us? Whatever the scary storm is, whether it's exams, fear, situations of abandonment or suffering... we could decide to keep our heads down, scared of looking up at the sight and trying to deal with it.. but what if we could pluck just some courage and look up?

You might ask, is there a ray of light? a ray of hope? yes, there is light, but not the way we expected it to be, it isn't gleaming out of blue skies, but it's surely light and bright.

Maybe we expected different sounds (maybe help from people we've wanted to get, but did not receive because of one thing or another) but these are surely sounds which might not be frightening, maybe we can enjoy their power, aknowledging them as sounds and knowing we are not deaf...

Maybe we expected something to turn out in a different way, but we were mistaken.. we might have expected resplendant skies, but what if the dark skies had something to give us? they might not be that dark, if we look closely we can see colours, deep shades of blue and red which shine through the white flashes of lightning. but this can only be perceived if we could just decide to risk, face our fears, and lift our heads... are you with me?

You might ask, and what do i get if i look up? Would you like to see the outcome? Have a look:

when silence falls..

summer.. doesn't it bring pictures of fun, hecticness, wild nights with friends, sunny days, plans, non-stopness? but sometimes, silence falls.. and it might tend to hit us hard.. maybe summer is not what we expected, maybe we wanted much more and thought that silence is far from what you want, that silence and calmness in summer is totally not fun, it's not summer at all.. maybe having big expectations and wanting to chuck everything in just three or four months is what we wanted, and we get to see that we didnt manage to do everything for various reasons.. and that might make you bored of your life, it might make you feel dissatisfied of the days which are passing by, or it might make you thirst for even crazier stuff which at the end of the day will not really satisfy you anyway..

what if, maybe, summer was more than just plans, plans and more plans? don't get me wrong, planning is great!! but what if summer is a time of silence too, of relaxation, where you just spend time with yourself and enjoy the simplicities of life? maybe its a time to wake up early and listen to the birds, maybe a time where you can just look at the sun rising from the horizon and really let God marvel you.. maybe it's a time to spend some precious time with people who you rarely spend time with them.. it's like we overrate holidays, personally i do, and i might get disappointed that i'm not flying off cliffs like bunjee jumping.. maybe we need to appreciate moments of calmness, because there we can really look deep inside us, and see what we might need to face one time or another...

personally, i'm a person who just loves being on the go, but likes moments of silence.. but sometimes, silence scares me because it might bring me face to face with realities that i don't wana face and tackle.. but if moments of silence didnt exist, i'd just keep on pushing myself to the edge until i explode, which is really not what i need.. what i know is that God calls me more than ever during these moments of silence.. or maybe it's me who listens more, cause in those hectic moments i'm just too hassled to actually stop and listen. "Peace be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46: 10) it's God himself who tells us to get still, to just stop whatever's happening, to actually let go of plans, stress, human beings, and just be there with God..

and at the end of the day, when silence falls, it's God's calming voice which passes through those clouds like bright rays that can warm your heart.. knowing that God can pull me through anything in life just gives me a peace which I'll keep on cherishing for ever.. how beautiful it is to know that i can just lay in His arms, not worrying where to go, what to say or do.. just there, being assured that He's the reason you're living.. that He can give you the fulfilment you really need.. be still, and believe that He is God.. that He can do all things, that He created you for a purpose, that you're given value, that you're His.

He's my Dad!

Aloha everyoneee :)

so summer's here, and exams were quite alright [excluding chemistry and maybe some bio but heq they're alevels.. what could i expect? lool but let's not talk about exams shall we?] so going back to the post's title, i wanted to write this story the priest said today during the homily..

He [the priest] was on his way from Gozo to Malta.. unfortunately, the weather was really bad and the sea was so rough that the captain ordered the passangers to stay inside because the sea could have dragged them all with it.. everyone was really scared and some were even seasick.. but there was this young boy, around 9 years old, running about enthusiastically.. He then told the priest: 'Father I'm not scared ta!' and the priest asked him, 'how come?' The boy answered: 'Cause the captain is my Daddy!'

this really struck me cause it really showed the simplicity and the complete trust the kid had in his father.. i remember when i was around 8 i was rocking on my chair and the chair slipped, so i fell flat on my head and i got dizzy [obviously] but being the kid i was, i didnt know what dizzy meant u know? and when my dad had come home, i felt so secure cause he told me it was going to be alright, that he had gone through it.. and at that point i felt relieved..

now if my earthly father could give me such security through his love, how much security can God, being my heavenly Father who created me and who knows me inside out, offer me? the answer is so so much more! He's more powerful than any earthly thing.. more powerful than a physical storm (going back to today's gospel), even a spiritual one.. and we can be sure that He'll tell us that it'll be alright in the end, because He's passed through pain too.. and throug happiness too.. :)

thanks Father for always giving me what i need, for always being there for me, for never getting annoyed at me when i nudge you and keep asking you for help.. thank You for the father you've chosen for me, i'm so grateful to have him!

God bless you and all the fathers out there! :)

Beauty of Your Peace

for how long shall i keep on worrying? for how long shall i keep on wasting my present because of fear? this is my prayer.. so that we allow God to pour out His peace like beautiful refreshing rivers, always flowing, never stopping.. i know that abundance in life can only be achieved through Him.. the world might make me want to believe otherwise, but it won't make my heart fulfilled.. i pray that God will take me as i am, and fill me up with his passion to love Him and serve Him :)

just being random

so yesterday week, i start my lovely awaited exams.. i'm ment to be studying right now.. but i really need to let things out lol.. studying has really gotten to me, and it's really not that nice.. all i do is think of studying, working and any methods which will help me study everything before Monday 25th!! its not that nice seeing that they've just given me one day off in a week.. [cause ive got exams on monday, wed, thurs, fri aaaand saturday which is my 17th birthday [not forgetting the next week for chemistry and italian]... oh how will it feel sitting for paper 3 biology on my 17th? lol ajma thats me being really stressed.. probably everyone knows by now cause i've been saying it for the past 2 months lool [yes we've had the time table for two months and im still backwards :S lol o well..

didn't you just love norway's song? :) i wont get into it, cause everyone has probably heard so much about it xD well.. i love it + him O:) lol and now im getting hooked on the following songs form the eurovision [i was never this excited on eurovision songs haha but theres always a first time!] norway, iceland, sweden, estonia, finland, uk, azerbaijan and last but not least bosnia and herzegovina.. maybe some of you didnt like it.. but i just love the tune and the language is realy nice to listen to..

anyway... time is up! i'll have to go and start again.. only 3 weeks left of serious studying and summer 09 will officially start off!! hmm... it feels close but so so far.. prayers would be totaly appreciated, cause mentalness is really close to explode me :S but one thing im clinging on is God's faithfulness.. cause even if my brain isnt faithful, He is and He loves me.. all i need is Him!

God bless dears
xxx

Unashamed

how many times have we felt ashamed of ourselves? maybe you've shown love to someone who did not return your love? and that made you feel embarassed of having loved them? i hadn't listened to this song in ages, and today it just cropped in my mind.. it must have been God answering me after long nights of questioning and pondering.. i finally believe that i don't need to be ashamed. shame just comes out of satan, like Adam and Eve had felt shame as soon as they had sinned. and Jesus is now showing me that He has helped us get rid of our shame. we're unworthy to stand at His feet, but still He's not embarassed or ashamed of loving a sinner like me.

we don't need to be ashamed of our brokenness, but its a chance of dwelling in God's presence and letting Him heal our broken hearts. there's no need to be ashamed of crying, He's done it before us. there's no need to be ashamed of loving, because He's loved us before we could even love Him.. Allow Him to break the burdens of guilt, shame, stress, anxiety, anger and whatever is pulling you down.. accept yourself as a child of God and allow Him to love you. allow brokenness to be a blessing.

"He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed”

(Luke 4:18).

His love makes it worth it

True Love!

we were free and made alive, the day the True Love died.

keeping me alive...

It's like I never lived
Before my life with you
So much was missing here
I never even knew
I still picture the place we were
When I fell into your world

My heart is in you
Where you go you carry me
I bleed
If you bleed
Your heart beats
Inside of me
You're keeping me alive

I don't know why feel this way
But something's right
You're like the morning air
Before the light arrives
No more lonely and
No more night

No more secrets to hide
I'll hold you near
Together, we'll never die
Your love is keeping me alive