In the Secret Place

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back ^^

I'm back :) from gozo too :P

it was a nice weekend with my family, needed it very much! i'll miss the place where we stayed, it was marvelous!! i wish i could go again, and stare at the beauty in front of me; the beauties of God: the sea, sky, greenery and birds.. and also the wind!! He really is the Lord of Heaven and Earth!

it's so beautiful to be picked up by God.. i think that when you're faced with a difficulty, uve got to go straight through it, holding the Hand that holds you and the whole world.. and i found that going through hard times will really help you get a step further in faith.. so thank God for times when you really need Him, cause in my opinion, those times are part of the most beautiful times you can have in your life! ekk being embraced by your Father when you truly need it is amazing, cause you'll experience the amazing sensation of being picked up and having your tears wiped away.. He's the One who really keeps you going in life, ask Him for help and persist, He'll answer you in no time! :) He does it through people, and even through worship.. cause He seeks a heart, not of bravery, but of brokenness which can be made strong by Him!! :)

praised be His name, for ever.. we wouldn't be here if it were not for Him, dont you think? :) thanks for ur encouragment in d comments section, really appreciated friends!!

these are some of the 151 pics i took in gozo xD











and this is a video of the whole view xD it was too big to be photographed!!

i can see a light that is coming, for the heart that holds on!!

weird much?

so yeah im in a really weird mood right now... i feel insecure, unsafe in a way, confused and i feel belittled.. dunno if you know what i mean... sometimes it just comes up and i dont know how to handle it.. and that feeling of loneliness starts creeping in.. and i know that it can be taken away by God, i know that i'm safe in the Father's arms.. do you ever feel the same way? and do you ever wonder how it comes? i feel as though i can't find any source of safety on earth, not even in my parents or close friends, and it makes me feel a bit alone and trapped... i know i must be strong in God, but sometimes its hard.. and i cant let all these things which are bugging me dig deep inside of me, cause i wont be enjoying life how God wants me to.. so yeah, im in need of some prayers =/ *please* i just need to find that hope again, its like theres something which is blocking it, and i might know what it is.. *hmm...* i feel like i need a good deep conversation with someone, even someone just to listen, cause its been far too long to keep in.. =/

brief update... summer lists... etc etc xD

so its been a week in which i've re-experienced so many emotions, some being stung by a jelly, and being totally breathless that i had to take the nebuliser, and well, other things... and ive realized that summer's rushing by!! like seriously rushing!!

next week i'll be starting singing lessons again *yay* but i already know that busy months lie ahead!! i've been wondering where i'd like to go to sixth form.. im so confused, and i thought i wouldnt have been :S im really lookin forward to start a new part of my life, and to see what the Holder of the future holds for me.. i cant wait to experience new stuff, meeting new people with different views and stuff, learning new things, and a new school and atmosphere... :D yeah i like it, ok?! :P

i wanna make a list of what i'd like to do this summer, even though nearly 2 months have passed! have you any clues? certainly, i'd like to read 10 books haha cause two summers i had done it, and i wana do it again xD i'd like to do something which ive never done before, maybe windsurfing! i want to draw a new set, maybe flowers or maybe fairies.. ive already started with the latter :) i'd like to start painting with aquarels this summer xD and maybe learn anatomy, and be able to draw professionally...

whats your list guys? have you been following it? :)

anyways, this is a song i've been meditating upon lately.. i wana live for God's glory, cause i dont wana waste my life to live it just for my pleasure..

great week =]

hiiii there, all of you!! :D

this week was awesome, but one of the most memorable nights was the night we had our social!! xD it was a nice night, full of different emotions haha, but a night to remember :) we were like the LIFE of the party dude!! we danced and danced and stayed chatting, insomma twas awesome :) then, we went at Bett's and illami that was a hilarious morning!! xD playing monopoly, but the guys were taking it really seriously haha and lilly and i were like... erm?! lool xD insomma, my energy left me completely so i just couldnt think in 3 and 4 in the morning!! lool then we spent an hour trying to shush each other up xD maa hilarious!!! the vids are on facebook, they'll crack you up! xD so a BIG thank you to all of you who made it a great night!!! you all looked gorgeous and budaful!! :D

and then 2 days after the social, we receive the results!! my sis and i were expecting them at any minute, but then we started doubting that we were gona receive them... but theeeen.... fran's phne starts ringing, and 2 seconds after mine does during lunch!!! lool and my sister started shrieking before she even opened it, and cried with happiness too, and then after a minute, i came back down to earth and opened my message xD im glad with the results, thank God ^^ He was sooo faithful during that period of stress and frustration!! twas a hard time, but thank God, He pulled me through it :)

i loved mustard seed yesterday, once again!! :D my table 8 mates are just great :P haha and all the others too :D its fun being all gathered there like a famillyyyyy

so yes, praise the Lord!! i wana say a big "thank you" to all my close friends, who've given me support and encouragement all along!!

may our Father bless you all!

xxx

God will lift up your head, dont worry :)

aww friends

so this week was good :) lol had a great time with friends, but sheltered myself from the sun for a little bit cause its dangerous man!! :O i spent a whole week dizzy >.< imma thank God im getting better now!! im really excited for tomorrow [for those who dont know, there is the st dorothy's social xD]

so yesterday, before y4j meeting started, we found a turtle in the middle of the road ta!! i mean, something like this doesnt happen very often, does it? :P and we were all amazed haha we were patting it, shreaking, shouting, laughing, staring at it, moving it until we were attempting to eat it and make it into a turtle soup [jahasraaa >.<] and stuff...it was sleeping, with its head and legs in its shell and it still did not budge!! ara how adorable!! we named it bubbles, and it had a rather cute rear end lol anyway xD

you know how sometimes, we're surrounded by a reallly huge storm, where the problems of life seem to stir us in the face, and we jsut need to go somewhere where we can rest... like the turtle, we need to find shelter somewhere, just to stay in peace somewhere out of the storm... and like the turtle has a shell, we have God's sheltering arms around us, and in whatever circumstance we are, we can be assured that God will give us what we need at that time... sometimes, we just need a shoulder to cry on.. you know how? but then, when we're embraced, we won't be affected that much by the storm, because we know that we're safe in His arms!!

so this is a song which im loving right now :) i havent listened to it in ages, and i dont know why really!! maybe God was treasuring it for me to put it on here :) you never know aye?

Mustard Seeeeeed

waaw guys Mustard Seed was awesome yesterday! xD lol the questions were so so so brain wreaking!! you can ask Philly, Franny, Lilly [haha they all end in a "y" lol sorry random =P] and all those who we've asked to give their opinions and answers xD hilarious, i must add!! i loved the opening, seriously!! cant wait for the meetings coming up!

Would you rather be healthy and homeless, or be sick with AIDS and live in luxury?

we all had different opinions with valid reasons! lol we spent about half an hour for sure discussing this question... what would you rather be, in your honest opinion? i'd go for the former, cause i'd rather live life healthily, and try find a home, maybe God will provide me with a kind heart who can provide me a job or a temporary place where to live...

but then again, as Phil said, its better to have a place where to live, and just live every day like it's the last one.. and she's right too!! but then you can do that even if you're homeless aye? *thinks lol* i mean, wasnt Jesus homeless too? and i dunno, i think that we cannot do anything without health, not even preach about God... if youve got AIDS, you wont have the strength to do anything, then what's the use of having a luxurious house? lol do you get me? haha xD yes! they're brain wreaking questions =P well thank God, we dont have any of these problems!!

Would you rather be known for being a show off or a wimp?

hmm... i think i'd rather be known as a wimp lol cause then i can prove them wrong, i'll prove them that im courageous and brave xD cause if they think im a show off, they wont confront me... they'd think im a stuck up and stuff lol you get me? xD haha well... no question beats the one above, like seriously :P this one was a bit easier xD

Would you rather be beautiful from the inside and ugly from the ouside, or vice versa?

haha i've invented this one xD aw its hard ta! :P i'd want people to think that ive got a nice character and stuff... but then isnt your appearance which meets the eye first? then, if you're ugly from the inside, can't God make you beautiful from the inside? :) like He can soften your heart and you'll be changed aye? but i still havent reached a conclusion xD

cause then, if you're beautiful from the outside, since we're all human, we all think that we need to change something to be more appealing from the outside... so yes.. i think i'd prefer being beautiful from the inside rather than ugly.. cause then, happiness counts right? its better being happy because youve got a lovely heart, than being conceited and watever but being attractive from the outside... aye? xD lool confusing much?

i'll leave you now, guys :] bdw, got a phone!! haha xD thank God for His providence aye!! :D
God bles y'all
xxx

I need You to love me!

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

And I need You to love me, and I,
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have, yeah
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

And I need You to love me, and I need You to love me
And I'll stop this pretending that I can Somehow deserve what I already have Somehow deserve what I already have

And I need You to love me, And I need You to love me

Life with Christ

this video shows what life with Christ really means, a life of hope and joy even in times of turbulence!! God can really do all things :) even change the situations in these people's lives, and even in our personal lives!! isnt that great?! :D