Monday, March 31

God WANTS you =) Really, He does!!

hallloo precious children of God!! =D

this morning, i watched Mark's testimony on Ben's blog [benflores.blogspot.com...tnks ben =D] and he was talking about his feeling unworthy and that he constantly felt satan telling him that he's just not good enough... God wanted him to start his own ministry, but he felt really scared to get over his fear [cause he's dislexic] but he decided to jump over the edge of the cliff of fear, he decided to leap in faith, even if he couldn't see where he was going!! and one thing which really struck me was what God keeps on telling him every single day: "I don't need you, but I want you!!" God is God, he doesnt need anything cause He's God and has all things, and still... HE WANTS YOU!! try make the emphasis on every single word....



God
wants you... God, the maker of Heaven and earth, the King of Kings really doesnt need anything, and He still wants us!!
God wants you... He doesn't just think you're sweet to get to know, He doesn't just think that you're an interesting person, He doesn't just like you, but He WANTS you!! :D with all His heart!!! look what a Father we've got aye?!
God wants you... YES, YOU, specifically you!!! He's interested in you, as an individual, as His beloved child!! and He really thinks you're worth dying for, infact He even sent His Son to die for you!! so do know that you're loved with all His heart!!!

so then later on in the day, i was like illa i havent listened to a podcast of Tim Hughes and Al Gordon for about 2 months!! so i decided to go on their worshipcentral podcasts, and my eyes fell on Tim's talk called: The Secret of Success. so i clicked it and started listening to it... illa and it was exactly about what Mark [of casting crowns] was talking about!! Our worth in front of God's eyes!! and it really touched me guys!! i managed to find it on Tim's blog [www.aboutlife.com/timhughes], so here it is =) read it, dont get discouraged with the length, u'll read it in such little time, i can assure you =P!!! u'll be amazed at what God's telling you, today!!! so here it is :D

The Secret of Succes

Thursday, March 27

"I'm proud of you, my child!!" =)

aaaw friends =D


ooh i'm really happy right now!! ahh God's so amazing guys :D:D so today i had a really romantic moment with Him!! He woke me up really early, at about 5.30am and at first i said uwijja i'll just stay in bed till i fall asleep again... but NO it wasn't that type of wake-up call lool i just couldnt sleep any longer...then i kind of felt God telling me "ejja mar leme show you my work of art!! ejja qum :P" lol xD so i woke up... and what a sweetie He was!! He showed me His wonderful sunrise!!!! it was peeerrrfectly drawn, the beautiful thin pink clouds in front of the wonderful sun, still orangy-pink!!! and illa the beautiful golden lining on the clouds was marvelous!! :D i just stayed there, so amazed ^^

and then we had dgrp at 11!! :D and we had these ice-breaker questions about how we see ourselves and how we'd like to be and stuff.. insomma it was a really thought provoking session, i must say!! thanks cett and all dgrp budds ^^... through the questionaire, i've gotten to know myself a bit better and now i think i know how to tackle some things... but then i was kind of a bit mad at myself, for failing to trust in God with all my heart... nsomma i was havin a "quarrel" between me, myself and i basically. I wanted God to speak to me so badly, cause it seemed that i just couldn't listen to Him!!!

i went to the chapel with my mami after private lesson...but still i didnt seem to listen to God...but then i was speakin to bex [www.bekymizzi93.blogspot.com] on msn and we were talkin about God's wonderful love =D and i felt God telling me "aw mar i'm proud of you ta!! ejja dont be angry at yourself, im proud of you, my child!!" and at that moment i was lke =O waaw :D:D so God really spoke to me today, and i thought that He wasnt, but He actually was, if i just listened!! so finally i heard Him speak loud and clear!! HE'S PROUD OF YOU =D YOU'RE LOVED!! don't be angry at yourself, dont be too severe with yourself... give yourself time, and be patient with yourself as well :) He will transform you, but its a slow process!! so just have patience and know that He is GOD who can do all things =D


i guess that was one thing which He really wanted me to learn today ^^ i think He really wanted to tell me that He loves me the moment i woke up but He still kept on persisting to tell me clearly xD how amazing He is ux?!!!! so He'll keep on persisting until you get the point, u can be assured ;)

so God's telling you this: "I LOVE YOU [insert name here] =D and i'm proud of you =)!!" and He's saying it with a really big smile on His face, believe me ^^

xxxxxx

Healer

ahhh guys this song just made me cry the first time i heard it and illa its amaazing!!! sing it from your heart to God!!! :D and really believe what ur singing!! ekk one of the things i rlly want to work on more is to mean the words i sing and really make them move into action =] lets help each other do dis guys!!

Wednesday, March 26

Come, Cling to me!!

aaaw guys =D

lol right now i'm so so so tired xS my legs feel a bit strange lol but mann did i need that hike or what?! it was so much fun with all of you guys ^^ but i wanted it to be longer [yes, maybe cause i didnt happen to walk the first part with you guys cause of chemistry lol but o well i still walked to go to the area where u had your first stop xD =P] imma insomma let me not blab any longer xD

so you know that game we were playin in a circle? insomma hekk i was thinking of it and it seems that there could be a message through that as well... u know the person has to keep on running away from someone, without getting caught and they just hook to another person to be saved? so the thing which we were running away from can symbolify anything which we're trying to get rid of in our life... it may be anythin which is pulling us down [sort of when we slipped while running] and we're trying to get rid of it, but in a way, we can't cause its too fast and soon will grip us...

and then we see a hand reaching out, telling us "come come here!! can u see me?! im here!!!" and you just grab the hand and hold on tightly, and the other person leaves instead of you...so that person who's giving you his helping hand is like God, who has His arms always and always wide open... then the other person who runs instead of us is like Jesus :D cause God sent His Son to pay the debts of sin instead of us!! it's like He's saying "ejja hook to me, now I'll send my Son instead of you!!" and there goes Jesus, ready to fight against the thing which is troubling us!! =]

so i'll just leave you with this song of Paul Baloche called Your Name and still of Hillsong ^^ enjoy guys





Jesus bless u guys ^^
xxxx

Sunday, March 23

He's alliiiive

hii maties :D:D

happy easter to you all and your families!! He's risen and He's alive now, with us, through His Holy Spirit!! so we've got a God who's with us and present in our daily lives, isn't that wonderful?! :D so i'll leave you with happy day of Tim Hughes :D:D i call it the easter song xD




may He be risen in Your hearts once again =D
xxxx

Saturday, March 22

The Everlasting Love

Hi all you children of God :)

so yesterday, the film made me think of God's everlasting Love!! i think that no words can really describe God's love for us... God's word and "The Passion of The Christ" could not give us a better picture of what Jesus did for us!! i think sometimes i take Jesus' sacrifice a bit for granted, without really meditating on what He's done for me.. i i've underestimated it so much and it really hurts that i forget what Jesus has really done... and ekk i think the film yesterday, really made it clear to me, and it made me want to cry even more cause of my unworthiness of such love!!

i remained speechless, and now that i'm watching some more clips to see which one i'll put up here, i just remain speechless once again!! it's so wonderful to know that Jesus was thinking of me when He was being crucified, and He thought of my pain so He wanted to carry it instead of me... you know that song "More than Life" of Hillsong.. Jesus loved us even more than His life, that He decided to go through all that pain just for us, knowing that not all of us would accept His love!! isn't that incredible of the King of Kings to do that just for a dirty sinner like me?! i think that love as everlasting as His cannot be given to us from anyone else!! think about it, friends, and really do thank Him for His amazing love and acceptance!! i think not enough thank you's will really be enough to thank Him for what He's done, but with His humility, Jesus will accept just a little 'thank You' from our hearts!! =)

yesterday, i thought about this... "would i have let the soldiers do that to me, even for my enemies? would i have taken Jesus' place?" i still dont have a definate answer, but i'm going to pray to be able to say "yes" with all my heart!! i recommend you to read John 15 and really let ever word sink in... but these two lines have really hit me:

John 15: 12-13

My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

today i went out with my mum and sister, and i kept saying this in my heart: Jesus died for her, Jesus died for him, Jesus even died for her!! so i think the more we say this, the more we appreciate each other as children of God!! don't you think? =D so whenever we feel like shouting at someone, we should say -> yes God died for this person, let me try stay calm =P God stayed calm with me and withstood all that pain..leme try withstand dis one too...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2vgKPUKNzc

God bless u my friends =] and happy easter!!
xxx

Wednesday, March 19

The Wonderful Cross

this song is so beautiful and so true!!! listen to it and really let every word seep through =]



When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

See from his head, his hands, his feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did ever such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown

O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross
Bids me come and die and find that I may truly live
O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross
All who gather here by grace draw near and bless
Your name

Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were an offering far too small
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all

[There is the beauty in the shame
There is the glory in the pain
Wonderful Cross]

God bless u friends =) May He rise in Your hearts once again!!

Monday, March 17

God's voice


so today, after chemistry private lesson, i walked it to st georges bay cause i was meant to meat sara an hour after... so i was looking forward to go to the bay to have a really good chat with God :D i was waiting for the lesson to be over xD so then when it was over i said: YES!! lets go pray :D:D lool so i went...

and arrived there at about 6.15ish.. and i sat on the grainy sand and looked at the marvelous sea...and wow was it marvelous or what?! it was sunset and the bay was simply deserted!! i just stood there and was really awestruck at God's amazingness!! the sky was simply marvellous [yes i'm a real sky freak ^^] and the reflections on the sea were lovely... the sound of the waves lapping against the rocks was amazing, and i just stood still and spoke to God... and boy did that help?!

although i really wanted to heard Jesus' voice normally [how you and i normally listen to each other speak] i still think that it's really amazing how God really talks to us!! i mean illla its amazing!! His peace is so beautiful!! He manages to speak in such a beautiful way, through His amazing creations!! i think if His voice was normal like yours and mine, we'd get bored cause He'd me the same like us... but i think that He has the most amazing voice ever!!! =D

His peaceful voice calms our inmost being... it fills us up from the inside and makes us able to surrender to Him.. it's just simply amazing!! =D i think i blabbed a lot today to God, and i needed to let Him talk even more, so i just shut up and let Him talk for once...and He spoke in such a beautiful way!! so don't be discouraged if you're not able to listen to Him at first, just stand still and know that He is God!! just worship Him and enjoy the silence He offers you ^^





If my heart has grown cold / There Your love will unfold / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand / When I’m blind to my way / There Your Spirit will pray / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand / Oceans will part, nations come / At the whisper of Your call / Hope will rise glory shown / In my life Your will be done / Present suffering may pass Lord / Your mercy will last / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand / And my heart will find praise / I’ll delight in Your way / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand / As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

this is what i really want to tell you: praise Him and thank Him and praise Him even more!!! =]


praying for you friends =]

xxx

Sunday, March 16

Lift up His Name

Holy, holy,
holy is the Lord God Almighty.
Holy, holy,
holy is the Lord God Almighty.
Who was and is and is to come,
who was and is and is to come.

Lift up His name with the sound of singing,
lift up His name in all the earth.
Lift up Your voice and give Him glory
for He is worthy to be praised.

Jesus, Jesus,
Jesus is the Lord God Almighty.
Jesus, Jesus,
Jesus is the Lord God Almighty.
Who was and is and is to come,
who was and is and is to come.

Lift up His name with the sound of singing,
lift up His name in all the earth.
Lift up Your voice and give Him glory
for He is worthy to be praised.

Friday, March 14

more than enough!!!

hey guys =]

i think God really wanted to tell me this, this past week: He's more than enough for me!! i dont need to be rich, i've got Him!! i dont need to be popular, i've got Him!! i dont need to find my happiness frm somewhere else, i've got Him!! i dont need to be scared, i've got Him!! i dont need to be afraid, i've got Him!! name whatever you want, but always keep in mind: ou've got the God who made you by your side, why need to worry?! i'm saying this to myself as well, and its true, its hard to believe this, especially if we're goin through a hard time, but God really gives us a meaning to our life [even the hard times]!! i really cant imagine my life without God, i'd be completely lost and hopeless!!

were just so so blessed to be loved by Him!! i think that if we allow Him to show us that 1cm3 of His everlasting love, we'd truly burst and just fall to the ground and worship!! =] don't you think? do ask God to reveal His love to you if youre doubting.. He'll answer you in a split of a second if you truly ask Him from your heart!!

so here come a couple of videos for all of you to enjoy =]

1. Enough - Barlow Girl



All of You is more than enough for
All of me for every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You
Is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know

You're my sacrifice of greatest price
Still more awesome than I know
You're my coming King You're everything
Still more awesome than I know

2. Amazing Love - Newsboys



I'm forgiven because you were forsaken
I'm accepted, you were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor you
In all I do, to honor you

You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King

may He continue on blessing you =D
xxx

Tuesday, March 11

i will make you free

I will make you free

I can’t explain, Lord,
What’s really on my mind.
I know that You understand,
Why can’t I leave it all behind?

I must stop running
Because You’re there, calling.
I must stop searching
Because You’re there, waiting.

I really want to love You,
More than I’ve ever done before.
I really want to worship You,
With a loving thirsty soul.

I really want to trust You,
And allow You to hold me.
I really want to love You,
More than I’ve ever done before.

You tell me to forget and start anew,
I gotta stop and give it all to You.
Why can’t I do this, I cry,
Will You help me try?

Then You stretch out Your hand,
And show me the pain You once had to withstand.
You look at me with merciful eyes,
And silence my painful cries.

Don’t be scared, come to me!
Trust me and I will make you free.
Don’t be afraid, my child,
For I know what is good for you.

Come to me, and I will make you free.


hope God spoke to u through this!! God bless =) xxx

Monday, March 10

From the Inside Out

so this week i realized i need to give more of my time to God, cause i wasn't putting Him first in everything i did... i realized i need to pray more and be more appreciative as well, cause what's better than being healthy and having such an amazing God by your side?!

i must use this lent to get closer to Him than i was before, and i really don't want to miss on these last few days of lent... please pray for me to put God first and love Him above all things, guys.. thanks for being such a supportive family!!

so i want to put this song up =] it's really inspirational and i encourage you to make it your own prayer!! and the video is so beautiful!! do watch it =]



God bless guys =]
xxx

Friday, March 7

when silence falls...

it's a beautiful song and i havent listened to it in ages... lol not really in a writing mood right now so i'll just post it xD



this is another version of when silence falls, but sung bt tim hughes and also 29th chapter =] see which u'll like best ^^ i personally like both of them, but then the second has rlly nice words [which are rapped] so do read the lyrics =]



bless bless
xxxx

Wednesday, March 5

last day of school!!!

today has been our last day of a normal school day... i can't even believe it!!!

it was the last day we spent our break outside...the last day we had nearly all the lessons as free lessons lol...the last day we had a religion lesson...the last day we sat on those desks...the last day we stepped into our class...the last day of us being form 5ers...the last day we were all united as a class....maaaaa what beautiful memories we've got!!!! :D:D

today, we were all so happy and excited and all anxious but rlly ecstatic lool xD we took qabda fotos of us as a whole class and stuff...we made dominos xD, a human pyramid xP and a star/sun with our legs lool xD and guess what had to happen?! i was cleaning my specs and suddenly they broke in half!! =O they've been at me only a year ta... it seems as though they wanted to be born at st dorothys school and die at st dorothys lol quite funny xP

insomma im gonna miss all of my friends, especially those who i wont really be able to meet.. but i'm happy that i'm going to start another "phase" of life or how to call it lol =] what i wanted to say is that it was such an amazing day ^^ i wont ever forget it haha xD 5.2 rocks my socks =D

later guys!! =D
God bless u all friends :)

Tuesday, March 4

the end of a part of our life...

heyy again!!!


so today school was so motivating lool i'm serious!! so we all thought that our school leaving was going to be held today month, that is the 4th of april, but today they changed everything completely and told us we're going to have it tomorro, next week!!!!! do you believe that?!?!?!?! and it's elaine's bday!!! maaaa and we were all shocked, some with joy and others with joy and sadness lol xD well i think i'm classified with the latter xD maaa it still hasn't hit home!! i mean come one, we're going to leave that soon!! and what about all the fun things we used to do?!?!


maa i'm going to miss so many things.... but so so so many things!!! lol the funny times with the teachers, the times we laughed and they told us off [*cough cough* rainbow lool], the times we cried, the times we had to work :S, the times we used to go to the nice chapel....maaa and some teachers who we really became close to!!! maaa i cant believe it's going to go "puff" [as el says lool xD] no but im serious.... but thank God we can always meet up, at y4j especially...but ill miss those 5 hours we used to spend at school =/ oh well life goes on, but still!!


i wonder what really life outside school is like... as in right now we're all so sheltered and stuff...minjaf what it's going to be like going out there, taqdef ghal rasek u ekk... and i think witnessing would be even harder out there... but i know God will lead us to the unknown =] "don't be afraid to trust the unknown to the known God!!" =) so i feel like putting some of our school's pics up here =] gona miss them biiig time!!








God blss y'all =]
xxxx

Sunday, March 2

Beautiful One



I encourage you to stop whatever you're doing and think of the times when:

You were amazed by God's majesty that you just fell to the ground and worshiped...
You meditated on God's immense glory...
You felt so overwhelmed by His presence...
You felt so unworthy to be called His son/daughter but felt so happy that He's proud that you're His...
You felt God's embrace warming you from the inside out...
You wanted to cry out His name to all the earth for He is GOD...
You felt His healing touch bring you peace...
You wanted to stay with Him for ever...

have you thought of them? ^^ have you re-experienced the sensation of being loved and cared for? have you remembered of a particular time when you felt that way during worship? in my mind right now I'm thinking of those beautiful worship sessions at soul survivor and the ones at y4j when I've felt so amazed at God's power that I just stood speechless...

you know, sometimes i forget all those beautiful things God showed me during worship... sometimes when i face a problem, i completely forget the times when God really showed His faithfulness. He's always faithful, but sometimes I don't see it, so I just get discouraged. but i think it's not the thing we're meant to do.

what i'm trying to say is that be grateful in the times of trial as well... remember those times where God really showed you that He loves you, so don't get discouraged when you don't feel it... but just remember on those times where you've felt it and remember that God does not change!! remember that He is the same one all throughout. cause i really don't want to let the one down there make me forget those beautiful times where God really showed me His beauty... so be appreciative all throughout =)

i'm the first one to do this sometimes, and it really bugs me cause i don't want to forget what God has done to me, especially when i'm feeling down or confused... please don't forget those times when God delivered you out of darkness... when you're facing a storm, remember those times and thank God for who He is, for He will pull you through!!

listen to beautiful one of Tim Hughes =) and really grasp the meaning of the lyrics and sing it to God, for He's worthy of all our praises... don't forget the beautiful things He's done for you out of love!! i really dont want to do it any longer...

so here are the lyrics =):

Wonderful so wonderful is your unfailing love
Your cross is spoken mercy over me
No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no heart can fully know
How glorious, how beautiful you are

Beautiful one I love
Beautiful one I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing

Powerful so powerful your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of your majesty awakes my heart to sing
How marvelous, how wonderful you are

You opened my eyes to your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
‘Cause nothing on earth is as beautiful as you

You opened my eyes to your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
‘Cause nothing on earth is as beautiful as you

My soul, My soul must sing
Beautiful one

Saturday, March 1

Now THIS is the New Beginning

hiiiii guys ^^

oh im so happy right now lol.. i haven't felt this free in ages xD and it's all because of God and nothing else, believe me!! this week was amazing, i must say!! illla when i think about it, God has been so so so faithful and He's revealed His love for us in such an indescribable way!! i really experienced His ability to change my sadness into joy, my anger into humility...especially when i went to confession!! it's through confession that Jesus make us free once again, and is it beautiful or not?!?!

i think, for me, these lenten talks are the first ones which really made me appreciate God and the first ones where i've felt so free and happy to be His child!! i gave my life to God on the friday of the lenten talks of last year, Let's Face It, 16th March and i've realized what amazing things God has done throughout this year of me following Him!!

you know when people say that God changed their life completely... i used to think that the change in my life wasnt as clear as that of others.. maybe cause i was brought up in a christian family so i was leading a normal life. But then today i realized that since i've met God and really experienced His love, i started being a happier person, a person with hope and ekk a reason to live.. yes, there have been moments where i felt lost and confused and what have you, but i think we grow through those types of experiences.

there will be times when we'll feel on fire, like the week in Soul Survivor or the lenten talks or even after a meeting at y4j, but obviously there wil be times when we feel tired and overwhelmed by everything. but that is the time where we can really show God that we trust Him and basically, i think that it is those times which really show our love for Christ and our will to continue walking on His steps. so come on guys, let's not lose courage and keep this fire in us!! don't be scared =) You've got the God of all the earth right next to you...yes there!! He's right there next to you!! let us allow God to be the leader of every relationship we've got and every other thing...

praying for you my friends :D:D
may He continue on blessing you
xxxxxx