Conviction and our Nothingness

hey again guys =]

I'm so sorry for not being able to update my blog this week...it's been really hectic [spiritually and physically] and i needed to settle some things out... nsomma anyway now i'm here xD

so this week, i kind of drifted apart from God, be it because of my energy-taking cold, my studies and homeworks, but i think mostly because of my stubbornness... I don't think I can really justify myself, because i know that i could have spoken and confided in Him more. I knew that I should have prayed more but I was a bit scared on the outcome. as in, i was holding back because i knew that He was going to convict me of my sin. but now that i'm thinking about it, i need to be convicted!! or else, i won't move closer to Him! i need to be told that i've done something wrong because I'll never learn and trust Him to take my sin away!! so conviction = growth. if we don't humble ourselves and not admit that we've done wrong, we won't be really free. and i'm the first one to be convicted here =] but we shouldn't take conviction as something negative. we should thank God for giving us His Holy Spirit to nudge us whenever we've done something wrong. because through conviction, we learn how to ask forgiveness and this will reunite us with God, the Father.

another thing which i've really learnt through this is that man i can't live without God!! about a couple of months ago, i did not really know what this meant. [read John 15 for more info] when i get to think about it now, i realize that i cannot even breathe without Him!! I think that the more we learn about His almightiness, the more we realize our nothingness. the more we believe in our nothingness, the more we are letting God fullfil us!! :D i find it really beautiful ^^ that is why God uses the weak to lead the strong! and once again, i hadn't really thought of this deeply, but now that i am, it means so much!! when we think we're strong enough to go walk alone, we stop depending on God as much as before and end up falling! and that's what really happened to me this week, i thought that i could handle it all alone, but i certainly could not and cannot in the future!

in fact, that's what worship is involved in: knowing that we're nothing, so we fall to our knees and worship God with reverence and awe!! doing so, we will touch His heart and He'll then touch ours =D when we're passing through a rough time, sometimes we find it hard to mean the words we're singing, but it's good to still try to worship Him. and you know, He'll be touched so much with your perseverance!! God is a God of mercy, and He'll appreciate every little perseverant action of ours! we just have to do one step, and He'll do the rest =D how amazing is that? ^^

so as a conclusion i want to tell you this: don't be mad at yourself if you've done something wrong and don't be angry that you're being convicted! forgive yourself as God has forgiven you and accept yourself as you are. You're so precious to God!! even though He's God and doesnt need anything, He wants you!! so go to Him and just let go =]

may you have a great week =] and remember: we're all so blessed, then why be stressed? :D:D lol please keep us olevelers in prayers ^^ since we're sitting for our mocks this month =] thanks guys, always appreciated!!

maria angelaaa
xxx

this clip is of the song Wonder of it All of Monday Morning =] amazing song about how we're nothing without Him and how we still have to learn to actually go to Heaven!!