never let go...

I Can Only Imagine

We don't know when the time will come,
the time when we're called to face our Father,
Will we be able to see our loved ones once again,
or be able to touch their heart from the heavens?
Would we be able to patch up their broken hearts,
or would we be enjoying our moments of memories?
But being one with the Father would be total beauty,
We'd be exactly where we were meant to be the whole time.
He'll be embracing us so warmly
that we'd be totally in awe of His pure heart, His unending love...
The only thing i'd say right now is
"I can only imagine".

This is our God!

This is our God,
The boy in the manger called Jesus,
Who was sent to light the way for all humanity.

He is the Father's beloved Son, sent to
Radiate light into dark places,
Give healing in wounded hearts,
Send courage in hopeless cases,
And give love through His warm embraces!

Christmas is not just a boring old feast day, it's much much more than that... Don't let it pass you by as if it's just a day of receiving presents, drinking and eating.. It's purpose is much deeper than that. The present you'll receive will give you life, the drink y0u'll receive will make you as white as snow, and the food you'll eat will fulfil you from the inside out! :)

He wants to come in and change your life from the inside out. Let him come in and you wont regret it, He'll give you the love you'll ever need to live your life to the full.. Smile, He loves you just as you are :)

may He be reborn in your hearts again, and have a great Christmas with Him by your sides :)blessings and greetings ^^
xxxxx

Poem written by a good friend of mine, Chris Mercieca

you dont know what you do to me
you make me want to forget the history
felt like we had sumthin
now its there no more
needed each other in life
i dont know i dont know
i cant take it any more

why must it always be so complicated
just want to live my life
just want to end the strife
and move on
already did that though
just to fall again
back down the same old road
so familiar now
might aswell call it home

open your eyes to the disillusionment
only hearing what you want to hear
only seeing what you want to see
thinking you had it all
just to find out the truth
and the emptiness shocks you
the feeling chokes you
and you want it all to stop

funny thing is these weren't some selfish dreams
just dreams of true love, pure love
and yet it seems that to me
this love shall never be returned

but don't go thinking that way
life moves on, you finally move on
gaining new hope
seeing the light after the rain
only
to fall again

and yet i feel
there's a different everlasting hope out there
someone who has this unending love for me
just waiting to be discovered
God teach me how to love You
how to give my life to You
leave it all in Your hands
You have a plan for us
though it takes us down roads we will never understand
for You work in the most mysterious of ways
Lord all i need is You
All I need is You.

Love is Here

Love is here,
No need to look for it somewhere else.

I'm by your side

Don't be afraid,
Give me your hand.
Here, I'm by your side...
I love you my dear child,
And nothing will ever make me do otherwise.

everything...

Hi friends,

I havent blogged in quite a while huh? sometimes i won't feel like blabbing out what my head's thinking ya know how? but i guess that's normal.. so i changed the blog's layout, i got bored of the other one, it seemed quite monotinous aye? insomma as you may all have noticed, i'll always put a flower somewhere, even in one of the page's corners xD

so yesterday i read on my bio book that theres this type of insect which floats on water, its so light that its weight does not make it sink in the water.. and well it made me think.. what if i could be like that insect? xD what if we could really unburden ourselves from the worries or fears or disappointments we've been facing in our life, and just move on without losing hope? we'd surely be lighter and we'd be able to walk on water... and what made this insect so light? wasn't it God? don't you think that He could make us lighter if we offer up our burdens to Him? personally, sometimes i forget that detail there, and find myself in a total flop.. the human being is quite complex.. sometimes we dont even understand ourselves, or try so much that we lose all the point of getting to know ourselves more through Jesus... confusing ux? lol

that was the food for thought for today!
i'll close with a beautiful song of lifehouse.. the words just struck me once again today!!

^^

God bless ya family

some light homour xD

so beky needed to write a poem for her english exhibition at her school about celebrities :) and nsomma i wanted to help her a bit :) and we came up with this, but its still not ready xD

it's about Robin Williams [lol we both dont really fancy him, but no offence goes to anyone who does ta jigifieri! :) we all have our own opinions ;)]

sir robin thinks he's funny
but lets face it, he doesnt make your day go sunny
so he's as charming as a seal
and his smile is as thin as an eel

oh i'd love to see him act like a teletubby
he'll sure play brilliant sunny
honestly he's as attractive as a bunch of gummies
and his teeth are as stunning as an easter bunnie's

hope u like it ;)

life...

hi friends

so ive had such a busy week!! seriously, sixth form is whoah xD totally a roller coaster of satisfactions and break downs.. madoff now, its like we're more prone to give up than ever.. like you hear so many people saying they're giving up, and you dont blame them in a way, but this week it has totally stirred me in the face- cause i was so frustrated and stressed man! and i kinda forgot what giving it all to God really meant.

this past week, ive felt God showing me time after time that i cant take life for granted.. there are so many beautiful blessings He sends which i just pass by them without thanking Him for it or meditating on the simplicities life beholds. ive seen how a little "hi" or a little "how are you" or even a small smile can really give you a sense of peace and lightness..

ive read a book [got it from d y4j library] called Journeys of Joy: 30 true stories of abundant living [collected by Allison Gappa Bottke] it really struck me to see how God moves in different ways in different people's lives.. how many times have you heard someone complaining about his growing old? but isnt growing old a miracle from God? itsnt your 50th birthday a sign of God's faithfulness, a sing of the many blessings He sent every single day for 50 years?

so one of the stories was of a woman, Susie, who was diagnosed with cancer, and her friend sometimes visitied her to help her with some stuff.. and Susie kept fighting for her life till the very end. she did not lose hope, she didnt stop the therapy even though it started becoming painful and her doctors told her that there was little hope. she kept persisting with the joy of God inside her.. and that really touched my heart, how someone in such pain can turn to God and trust Him fully with his/her life with a persistence full of faith..

her friend was also touched by Susie's "zest for life and faith in God", and she has "embraced the joys and trials of getting older. after all, each birthday is one more year that I've experienced life's many jewels- jewels ranging from my children wrestling with my husband to a bird's morning song awakening me."

its really strange how the human being wants something so badly, that when he gets it he's not that glad of having it because he's lost the whole meaning of his not having it? sounds confusing aye? example, when we were young we used to die to get older, like us girls wanting to experience make-up and boyfriends at a really young age, or guys wanting to experience cars and guns like adults.. and then when we're this age, we sometimes wish we'd be younger, not having to worry about looking pretty or not, and enjoy life the way we're meant to!

so what im trying to point out is, don't let your days pass by as if its just another boring day. there's a reason behind every hour of your life, a reason behind every trial, a reason behind each little blessing which makes you smile, a reason behind everything.. don't let them pass by because of stress, worries or fear.. but live each day with a positive attitude, give it to God and He'll reveal what the packed blessings will be.. that's why the present is called present! ;)

xxx
God bless y'all

Nothing, but Him.

GOD..............the greatest LOVER
SO LOVED.........the greatest DEGREE
THE WORLD........the greatest NUMBER
THAT HE GAVE.....the greatest ACT
HIS BEGOTTEN SON..the greatest GIFT
THAT WHOEVER....the greatest INVITATION
BELIEVS.........the greatest SIMPLICITY
IN HIM............the greatest PERSON
SHOULD NOT PERISH...the greatest DELIVERANCE
BUT.................the greatest DIFFERENCE
HAVE................the greatest CERTAINTY
EVERLASTING LIFE....the greatest POSSESSION



For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. (Ephesians 2: 10)

Everything in its time..

You might not always get what you want, but God will give you whatever you'd really want in the end! this might seem contradictive, but it isn't really.. minjaf how many things we'd wana have in life, when the vital ones might be right in front of us and we're just too blinded by the "i want this, i want that" thoughts, that we just let the blessings we currently have slip from our fingers.

We might not get what we want right now, cause they might hurt us or cause trouble and confusion in our lives.. But God'll give us what we really need, what we would really want, i.e. the best for ourselves.. maybe we think that if we get something, life will turn out to be better.. but then maybe God is treasuring the best of bests for now, until its the right time to uncover it and show it to us!!

Hold my Hand...

Don't be afraid,
Give me your hand...
...Here, I'm by your side.
I love you my dear child,
And nothing will ever make me do otherwise.

in His name lies the meaning..

the more i live, the more i see how i cant do anything without Him. the more i live, the more i believe how much i need Him, how much i'm weak and fragile without Him. i thank Him for being my rock on which i base my life, for without Him i cant do anything, but with Him i can do anything!

What a great miracle we're living..

hey guys :)

so the testimonies went great!! yesterday after that blog, i had a nice conversation with God and He calmed me in a really great way!

so it was tine, rob, achie, zoe, chanelle, marie claire, beppe, sara and i :) and illami guys, God's touched me so so much wtith your testimonies!! ive heard some of them more than once, but man, today it was like bam! in front of me, God's proof of being alive and kicking in our lives.. it was there, in front of us, He's so real! and we're living a great miracle guys!! i just felt like hugging u all, seriously xD and im sure i would have done that to all of you if you were there, my second family :) keep it up guys, you're such blessings given by God man!! thanks for being a beautiful family.. lets pray for unity as rache wrote on her blog.. :) so we'll keep on helpin eachother in this journey!!

thanks for the encouragment, but mostly, thanks to God for being the miracle maker!!

we must go!!

the fact that we must go keeps on stirring in front of me every single day.. but i get scared sometimes.. i wonder if people would criticize me, or if they'd get the wrong impression on who i really am.. i wonder if people would judge me and not grasp the true meaning of what a Christian really means.. but then if i won't go, maybe they wouldn't have a chance to meet the Love we're called to show [by actions and by words].. sometimes i think that preaching through words is easier but now im starting to think that actions might be easier sometimes.. tomorrow, together with some youths, im gona give my testimony to i think about 2 religion classes [probably one would be mine].. and i'm kinda scared.. i know i shouldnt be and i know i should be overflowing with the passion to talk about Jesus, and i do wanna do it, but i'm scared.. and now im saying why the hekk am i being scared? i dont need to be popular in the world's eyes, i'm popular in God's and thats what matters at the end of the day! i dunno what to say, how to react and how to show Him to the people.. but i dont wana deny Him, and im not gona do that for anything in d world.. i just want that these people would really take what we're gona say seriously.. i know God'll speak through us, which is another reason why i shouldnt be scared.. oh please some prayers would help.. cause these people really need Him =/ there are so many lonely people, today a guy just said it wen he was in front of me and his other close friend.. and he seems like a guy who's got everything.. but He needs Jesus! lets just pray for these siblings of ours, to find the light and seek Him..

Which specs are you wearing?

When you see the word "specs", what comes to mind? one of the most obvious things which come to mind are eyes aye? but then names of some brands like Vogue, D&G or Versace come to mind. Now let's talk about spiritual specs... Would you wear a nice fancy and expensive pair of specs with lots of diamonds, that can easily break if it falls? or a strong pair of specs [not that fancy], but which will last for your whole life?

So today, i had a chemistry practical.. and you gotta use your eyes a lot cause you need to look at the values on the burettes and stuff at eye level [it was titration for those who know chemistry xD] and this was my first lesson, starting at 8 in d morning, so i needed good eyesight :P our teacher kept reminding us to wear our safety specs to avoid gettin blinded by acid drops flying out of the apparatus... [and in the same way, so does God keeps on reminding us some time or another] some of us asked him if we could stay with our normal specs, but he said acid drops could easily pass through and hit our eyes... and then, we all decided to wear our safety ones [even if they might not be THAT stylish]...its worse losing an eye than losing a leg cause u can still live a fine life.. but losing your eyesight is a greater loss [but thats just my opinion..] cause you might not see the light again.. and that's what happens when we wear the wrong pair of specs for a really long time, when we decide to please our flesh, we keep on pushing the voice of truth away and we kinda stop seeing the true Light!

So what this really means is, you need specs, and not only for a chemistry practical but also for your personal christian life... sprays of acid will keep on "attacking" your eyesight.. and acid, being corrosive, will damage your pretty fancy specs [apart from your eyes]! so you need strong ones, which will endure anything! so let's wear God's pair of specs!! :) today during the adoration, i took off my specs and at that same moment i felt God telling me: wear my specs, mar, so you'll see the world through my eyes!! and that's what i really wana do in life, to stop seeing through the specs of materialism, judgment, jealousy, depression or anything that might be gettin in the middle of my relationship with Jesus :) or you need to clean them a bit? what do you think? will we wear the pair of safety specs which God is providing us with?:) they might not be that stylish, in the sense the world thinks is stylish, cause maybe the world would be bombarding you with so many contradictive things, but MIND YOU! He'll surely give you a pair that would suit you ;) and it would really allow you to see the "LOVE" picture!!

And today, i had another double biology practical... and we had to use our eyes again to look under the light microscope :) so God's been using our nice pair of eyes quite a lot today, aye? insomma and we observed a hydra [its a really tiny living thing found in the sea] and twas so cute!! and at that moment i said, illami small things as these do exist!! and sometimes we might wear the specs with the "miniscule" lens? where we see ourselves like small tiny dots compared to other people, and think we're too small to be used by God or too 'ugly' to be liked by a guy or girl? well guess what!!:D God's offering you the specs with the "magnifying" lens!! He wants you to see what a beautiful creation u are to Him, what an amazing irreplacable child you are to Him!! forget the miniscule lens and turn to the magnifying lens!! you're a great person in God's image :)

So which pair of specs would you like to try on, sir/madame? xD

It's up to you now!

Blessings and more Blessings

xxx

The present...

you know how sometimes you feel that you can't keep something in your own hands, because it doesnt depend on you but on others? you do leave it upon God but then you still doubt whether the situation would change, because you know that God will do His best, but you're not sure whether others will accept His help? an example is when you really try to tell a person about God, and you pray about it, but then its up to the person to accept it? or you try to pray for a situation to change but you can't handle it, because you can't really change it... and sometimes you try do something, and you cant find the words of "wisdom"? sometimes i wonder if what i do is enough, if it's really the best i could do.. surely sometimes it isn't! and you think, what if i could turn back time and say this not that? what if i could say these words of encouragment instead of those words of frustration? or what if i could have done this instead of that [not necessarily a bad thing]? but then, regret steals your "now"! so if we really appreciate the present, with all its imperfections, we can then be greatful for the future which will be perfect -the future in God's arms :)

i wanna live my "now" and appreciate the beauties in it, cause each day will never repeat itself in history.. :)

school.. and more school!

so school has been going on well... i love it!! its all new, independent and cool, all about meeting new people, chilling and having a laugh with your friends in frees and learning new stuff :) but teachers have been stressing us :S already!! i mean, im a person who gets a bit influenced on what people think, especially if i really respect the person.. and ifhem, i dont want all this to affect me :S cause if its gona make me lose hope from day 1, then it isnt worth it... but i dont want that to happen! ive been hearing so many voices saying its tough, its hard, not many people manage it, its nothing compared to what ull be facing at university, you gotta study every single day... and i think all these just make my moral go low, and make me not want to study hard :S and mind you, im a person who loves studying.. but i need to get this in mind: ive started school, and im there to work!! i know this, it just seems too much when lecturers keep on reminding you its tough :S it is, i know, but its too much now :S and i really needed to get that on writing.. lol i wonder who reads this anymore xD but its ok, ill still blog, im still wishing that i could help people through my writing.. but then i know that i write it for God's glory not for mine.

another thing is... i think ive been falling into the land of compromise sometimes.. and i dont wana do it.. im not gona get anywhere if i keep on doing it, and i know this.. cause like i can't be a christian just when i feel like, and its tough!! but ill manage with Jesus, for sure.. i wanna believe, even if the world tells me otherwise. i wanna love, even if the world contradicts me.. i wanna smile and hope, even if the world prohibits it. i wanna reflect Him and be a Christian, even if the world's against it.




may God bless you all, siblings in Christ.

With everything, I'll shout for Your glory!

Even if I'm not perfect, Lord, I'm ready to be Your channel. I know that I'm weak without You, but I strongly believe that with You I can do all things. Help me to reflect Your love and compassion, to have a heart like Yours! I'll shout for Your glory with everything that's going on in my life, Lord! Let this life be Yours to work upon and to make other lives be changed!

Halleluia!! :)

ahh praise the Lord for such a great weekend!! He's been so faithful, so true, so promising!! really... i'm just speechless!! :') let's be strong for His glory, to love Him and be ready to do what He wants from us. He'll never get tired of telling us "I love you", then we shouldn't be tired of proclaiming our love to Him!!:)

God bless you all, friends!

have a great week!!

Reflections...

why do we sometimes let significant things slip our fingers? why do we forget those times which were once those we really longed for all along? why do we find it hard to refrain from what we're doing and let the world stop for a moment, so that we'll really consider when was the last time we really felt at peace? how come we change so much, in a small span of time? why do we forget what truly gave us the sense of belonging, in order to look for it somewhere else? why is the past sometimes not as meaningful to us as the present? is it because we're too busy worrying about the future of the present, without really taking in the full beauty and significance of the present? what will become of us, sometimes we ask, without really knowing what we are now... where is the happiness of the past, sometimes we wonder, without really grasping the beautiful meaning of the present... why have things changed through time,(we ask), is it because it was meant to happen, or because we've let it slip through our fingers like sand? what will become of me, sometimes i ask, if i let my life slip through my fingers? what would i say, sometimes i ask, if i lose my grip? what would i do if the things i've always dreaded would actually happen? would it be the beginning of a storm, or a drizzle of rain followed by a rainbow?

but then i think of myself next to the One most high, and wonder why i even ask questions which would have already been answered... like You had said to Isaiah,

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts. (isaiah 55: 8)

and You promised another of Your beloveds, Jeremiah, that You've got the future in Your hands..

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (jeremiah 29: 11)

and again, You're promising another child of Yours... You've told me that You'll lead me, wherever i go, if i'd just let You, You'll control the storm without hesitating, You'll love me without thinking twice!!

what if i were as innocent and trusting as a kid? life would be much easier!!

helloooo worldddd

wooo i'm blogging :) really felt like writing today haha xD..so yeah i know i havent updated in quite a while... well ive been computerless for 5 days and that can justify a part of my absence in the blogging world! O=) lol so.. what has happened during these 2 weeks?

• i'm an official junior college first year student, who will be studying biology and chemistry at alevel.. and religion, italian and physics at intermediate.. [lovely aren't they?]


• i havent swam since the 8th!! meaning that now im not gona swim for these following 8 months for sure!! how sad.. but i've been wanting winter since i dont know when xD ahh so i'm currently loving the rain :) and the amazing colours God puts whenever He showers the earth with His blessing [the rain is a big blessing, seeing as our island is a very hot one!!]
  
• i've had a dgrp day which was awesome!! :D
  
• i got blk and pink DC's xD tehe yes im happy..[primarily for school] :') cause like now im planning on walking it everyday to go to JC [apart from those days where i feel lazy lol xD] but ive been really excited to walk for 40 minutes every single day.. [yeah its quite far away..]
  
• i've had some questions answered by God, which was great.. mustard seed has helped so so so much!! :)
  
• i've learned what the meaning of patience and trust means..[partially,cause i believe God wants to tell me much more..] God has really provided to us, like He's answered so many prayers.. they'd be in front of you and you'd just be in awe, really!! like His act of generosity couldnt be even more clear!! i wish i could be that generous..
  
• i've learned how to appreciate things which i take for granted.. you know how sometimes you dont take people seriously, you just know they're there and something sinks in when you've lost it, sort of..

i'm really lookin forward to this week :) lost of sixth form stuff will be going on.. like all week long [xD]!! and then.........*drum roll*..........STRONGER live in :D ahh :D so we'll be all fired up to start with the lessons on d sixth!! :) aahh cant wait!

so i'll go now.. cause i'm tired... its just been a quick short post xD i just felt like blabbing lol...

take care friends... keep close to your Daddy!!

let us be Your face!

my prayer for today is this.. to be God's face, the face of Love.. it's hard, and will keep on being hard. but we can't forget that we're made to love, and not hate. we're meant to forgive, and not condemn. we're meant to be faithful, not to betray.. but even if we've done these, we're meant to change our ways and follow the face of Love.. its never too late!! no one is too low for us to serve, nor too lost for us to love!!

The love that helps me survive...

For so many times, I’ve been hurt,

For so many times, I’ve felt lost,

For so many times, I’ve been rejected,

For so many times, I’ve felt betrayed.

Those times led me to You, Lord.

Even though they’ve gripped my soul,

You loosened me so gently,

Protecting me from the spines of life.

But then I’ve walked alone,

Thinking I could survive,

Believing I had all I needed…

However, You still kept on calling,

Persisting until I returned,

Believing I am still worth Your love!

It’s Your love that helps me survive,

The love I cannot earn,

But the love I can still receive!

I’m unworthy to be called Your daughter,

But You see deeper than the human eye can see.

You see my heart, Lord,

The heart that thirsts for Your amazing grace!

a quick recap..

hi friends :)

excuse me for not updating that much this month.. it was hectic in many different ways!! insomma i just came from a weekend in gozo, again, with the family :) it was quite amusing to be honest xD we rented a place in front of the sea.. and insomma, the flat was a bit... how shall i put it?... rusty in the maintenance part lol..

so first, the door leading to the veranda couldnt open! xD and we had to get the guy, and after some tapping and bashing and hitting and hard manual work, it opened!! *yay* so we could relax in front of the beautifulllll sea..

then what happened? dad wanted to switch on the geaser.. and the electricity of the whole flat just went off!!:O lool xD [embarassing moment dot com!!] lol this all happened while i was asleep, and i hear my sister's loud laughter coming from the kitchen!! and then the fuse of the tv, fridge and fans just broke!! :O so we didnt have those lovely facilities for a whole day lol.. but then the next day we got the guy again, and all was well xD but something had to go wrong again...

while my sis and i were playing cards with nannu, we saw white foam coming out of a pipe which led to our bathroom!! it was the shampooo!! :O lool so the pipe wasnt well maintained either... but it was a lovely flat ta :P

to put things worse.. [or rather funnier] our neighbours were rather loud and mocky people!! lool so i started singing and stuff.. and they start imitating me, meaning the children + the father!! and tat was a bit.... annoyingly offending... but then we got along with the joke lol and started imitating each other!! hah! :P

theen that night, the father just couldnt stop snoring!! we couldnt sleep, at all!! cause since there was a really nice breeze at night, we both left our veranda doors open ux.. lool my mum tried stamping her feet and banging on the door to make him stop.. and the baby starts crying!! :O illami... theeen after a couple of minutes, the baby stops.. but the father doesnt!! lool then we just closed the door cause we couldnt take it any longer.. but we didnt have the fan cause of d burnt fuse!! :O -.-' funny dot com!! lool believe me, i hadnt laughed that much in quite a while lool!!

insomma... so on our way to y4j after gozo, i heard this song of Tobymac, this christian singer, called Made to Love and it totally struck me!! have a look and tell me what you think :) the lyrics are great, what really hit me were these:



I was made to love and be loved by You!

let's face it.. loving someone doesnt always consist of those fluffy nice beautiful butterfly feelings! it doesnt always work like that.. sometimes its easy to love a person who shows you love in return.. but sometimes you wont see the love directly.. and you tend to lose hope and get angry with the person, and stop loving.. not necessarily stop, but you get annoyed.. and its normal... but then, we're faced with two options..

1. stop loving the person, cause if you're not going to receive love from him/her, its just not worth it loving them..
2. keep on loving, even in the hard times, and forgive the person by giving him a second chance.. by giving them their own space, but keep on respecting them and accepting them the way they are, cause at the end of the day we all need to be loved and feel loved!

but we arent alone in this process. hence, we were made to be loved by Him!! and we truly are, He's the main reason why we love, anyway!

1 John 4: 19 -> We love because He first loved us!!

and i think God's helping me discover what really seeing Jesus in people means.. sometimes we might think that a person isnt worth our love.. but then i get to think that aren't we meant to love that person because he's made in God's image, because she's our sister in Christ? so ekk, i think we should really love the person even if we might not like it, because it might hurt us... but maybe if we could offer it to God, and just do it for God, then it wouldnt make us focus on our hurt, but more on God!!

so if you love that person just to serve God and really obey Him, wouldnt you find the true reason to love? so when you find yourself in a really tough decision, whether to keep on loving the person or not, just think.. should i love him/her anyway, to serve God? just think of it as a way to worship Him, to really bring Him glory! try not to think about yourself and your hurts.. i mean yes it hurts, and maybe right now you're telling me "mar you dunno what youre saying.. its hard when the person doesnt show you love".. i get you, seriously.. but dont lose hope, keep on loving them! and more than that, keep on praying for them... then God will show you how to keep on loving the person :) He'll keep on giving you the strength to do it!!

God bless u lotssssss
xxx

why do i do this?

hmm... why do we wish what we don't have? why can't we appreciate ourselves, without allowing people's actions to really affect us? why do we keep on wanting something that others have? why cant we live life the way God wants us to? why cant we stop judging, but accept them and love them as they are? why cant we appreciate what weve got, without craving to be like the world? why do we want everything the world offers us, and keep on wanting them if we know they wont satisfy us?? why do we keep on hurting, if we could just let it go? why do we stay here, even if we know that we arent in the right place?

simple... because we're human...

then why am i such a human?! >.<

this is just me, my brain and myself..

why do i let the world engulf me?! dont i know that its dangerous?

Risking to leap!

this will be long.... so prepare yourselves :P


Lately, I’ve been thinking about leaping in faith, risking to risk, even if it might seem crazy to you and the rest of the world… It might be for various goals we might want to reach, but let’s face it, in life we won’t end up anywhere if we just don’t do that small step. That step will move us out of our comfort zone, that zone where we just seem to be stuck all the time! And sometimes leaping needs something else to be able to be done; which is faith! And believe me; we really need faith to go from the known to the unknown!!

So in life, we gotta leap if we want to get somewhere… be it in education, where we have to take that risk of choosing a hard topic, and where we have to believe that we’ll make it at all costs! And there’s where faith comes, where we aren’t sure that we can make it on our own, but we have to keep on persisting through the long, tough journey, to actually reach somewhere.

But then there are other important leaps which we Christians have to face, each and every single day! They might be taken as for granted, but they are so so vital in our lives.. one leap is that of LETTING GO IN GOD’S ARMS. A leap in faith which we have to take; to actually be able to taste the true meaning of life, when God is the centre of your life. He’s the One who is really putting your life’s puzzle into place…

Letting go has always been a bit of a tough decision for me, sometimes because of fear of what the future might hold and sometimes because I didn’t really know how to do it.. and this made me reflect on life’s actual meaning. What would it be if I wouldn’t let the Creator of my life move me wherever He wants? What would it be if it isn’t in the hands of the One who made me in my mother’s womb? It wouldn’t be in its rightful place if it weren’t in God’s hands… and this made me think of God’s beauty, how His plan is so wonderful, beyond my teeny weeny little brain!! But now I can say I’m glad it’s in God’s hands, because I’m not going to bother worry about my future.. because I can sing of God’s love forever!! there again, I think I need to keep on leaping to actually believe this to the fullest!!

Jeremiah 29: 11-14

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."

I picture letting go in God’s arms as this man who’s holding onto a branch which is attached to a rock. He’s like a real lot of stories high above the ground, and he knows that he will not be able to hold onto the branch for long.. then he sees this huge beautiful eagle flying above him. And realizes that he’s got two options:

Option 1:
Keep on holding on to the branch, because he’s scared that he’ll end up dying because he won’t trust the eagle that it will catch him when he falls.

Option 2:
Let go of the branch, allowing the eagle to catch him when he falls, and as a result, he’ll experience the true feeling of being free!!

The branch can symbolise anything you can mention. It might be the branch of fear? maybe the fear of future, or of being mocked and not understood by the world? The former sometimes hinders me from really letting go, that branch which stops me from experiencing being caught by God [the eagle] and from experiencing freedom?

Or it might be the branch of pride? Where you’re just too proud to let God heal you, too proud to admit that you need help, that you cant really do anything without God? but then guys, if you don’t let go of that branch, will you experience freedom given by the One, True Saviour? I’ll leave it up to you, guys :)

This reminds me of Isaiah 40: 28-31

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Another leap with which we come face to face is that of LOVING! I’ve realized this these past few weeks… loving can be so hard sometimes! The world keeps on bombarding you with so many negative attitudes!! if you’re kicked, kick harder. If you’re laughed at, laugh harder at the one who laughed at you. if you’re punched, punch even harder till your enemy will lose sight. Isn’t it true imma? Like people tell you not to give someone a present if he hasn’t given you one..
but look what Jesus says in John 13:34 :

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."

Can’t we just make that act of kindness, and give hope to someone who hasn’t really thought of giving you in the first place? Now im not perfect either, and it really annoys me when I actually think like that too.. but I don’t wana keep on doing this, I don’t wana give if I receive, I wana give even if I don’t receive! Its so hard though.. sometimes circumstances just stop you from serving God to the full..

I want to learn how to accept everyone, and love like Jesus loved, without being proud and judgemental… I want to make everyone feel loved, even if I don’t feel loved at times.. but then I realize that I need to be loved too, that’s when I realize I need God to show me His love for me once again!!

But then, I need to learn how to recognize the difference between loving till it hurts, and loving too much that you’re just allowing the person to keep on hurting you.. then wont you have to bring it to a stop? Hmm.. its confusing dude lol but that’s just me :P so this is just a side note haha ill just have to wait till God answers this question by time :)

Anyways… I encourage you to LEAP! Even if you cant see the other part of the road… just leap, and let the Saviour’s arms catch you while you’re doing the leap. There’s no need to worry, cause you know that you’ll end up landing on safe ground: THE SAVIOUR’S ARMS!! :) know that you're doing the right choice if you choose to obey God, u wont regret it... even if you're afraid that no one will understand you.. just keep on hanging in there!!

amen? amen!! :D

What this heart really wants...

This is a cry coming from a broken heart,
A heart which cannot make it through without You.
She is longing for Your loving embrace,
Seeking, not the world’s but Your face.

This heart is bowing down, praying for forgiveness,
Because she knows that she’s gone astray.
But You’ve loved her before she could love,
You’ve held her before she could hold on.

This is a call coming from a genuine heart,
A heart which cannot live without You.
She is praying for acceptance, and a helping hand,
Wishing that the world’s storm was not as huge.

This heart’s reaching for Your hand,
Waiting for Your soothing touch.
She knows You’re faithful and true,
Nothing will stop her from believing in You.

In the Secret Place

(put the volume up for a better sound)

back ^^

I'm back :) from gozo too :P

it was a nice weekend with my family, needed it very much! i'll miss the place where we stayed, it was marvelous!! i wish i could go again, and stare at the beauty in front of me; the beauties of God: the sea, sky, greenery and birds.. and also the wind!! He really is the Lord of Heaven and Earth!

it's so beautiful to be picked up by God.. i think that when you're faced with a difficulty, uve got to go straight through it, holding the Hand that holds you and the whole world.. and i found that going through hard times will really help you get a step further in faith.. so thank God for times when you really need Him, cause in my opinion, those times are part of the most beautiful times you can have in your life! ekk being embraced by your Father when you truly need it is amazing, cause you'll experience the amazing sensation of being picked up and having your tears wiped away.. He's the One who really keeps you going in life, ask Him for help and persist, He'll answer you in no time! :) He does it through people, and even through worship.. cause He seeks a heart, not of bravery, but of brokenness which can be made strong by Him!! :)

praised be His name, for ever.. we wouldn't be here if it were not for Him, dont you think? :) thanks for ur encouragment in d comments section, really appreciated friends!!

these are some of the 151 pics i took in gozo xD











and this is a video of the whole view xD it was too big to be photographed!!

i can see a light that is coming, for the heart that holds on!!

weird much?

so yeah im in a really weird mood right now... i feel insecure, unsafe in a way, confused and i feel belittled.. dunno if you know what i mean... sometimes it just comes up and i dont know how to handle it.. and that feeling of loneliness starts creeping in.. and i know that it can be taken away by God, i know that i'm safe in the Father's arms.. do you ever feel the same way? and do you ever wonder how it comes? i feel as though i can't find any source of safety on earth, not even in my parents or close friends, and it makes me feel a bit alone and trapped... i know i must be strong in God, but sometimes its hard.. and i cant let all these things which are bugging me dig deep inside of me, cause i wont be enjoying life how God wants me to.. so yeah, im in need of some prayers =/ *please* i just need to find that hope again, its like theres something which is blocking it, and i might know what it is.. *hmm...* i feel like i need a good deep conversation with someone, even someone just to listen, cause its been far too long to keep in.. =/

brief update... summer lists... etc etc xD

so its been a week in which i've re-experienced so many emotions, some being stung by a jelly, and being totally breathless that i had to take the nebuliser, and well, other things... and ive realized that summer's rushing by!! like seriously rushing!!

next week i'll be starting singing lessons again *yay* but i already know that busy months lie ahead!! i've been wondering where i'd like to go to sixth form.. im so confused, and i thought i wouldnt have been :S im really lookin forward to start a new part of my life, and to see what the Holder of the future holds for me.. i cant wait to experience new stuff, meeting new people with different views and stuff, learning new things, and a new school and atmosphere... :D yeah i like it, ok?! :P

i wanna make a list of what i'd like to do this summer, even though nearly 2 months have passed! have you any clues? certainly, i'd like to read 10 books haha cause two summers i had done it, and i wana do it again xD i'd like to do something which ive never done before, maybe windsurfing! i want to draw a new set, maybe flowers or maybe fairies.. ive already started with the latter :) i'd like to start painting with aquarels this summer xD and maybe learn anatomy, and be able to draw professionally...

whats your list guys? have you been following it? :)

anyways, this is a song i've been meditating upon lately.. i wana live for God's glory, cause i dont wana waste my life to live it just for my pleasure..

great week =]

hiiii there, all of you!! :D

this week was awesome, but one of the most memorable nights was the night we had our social!! xD it was a nice night, full of different emotions haha, but a night to remember :) we were like the LIFE of the party dude!! we danced and danced and stayed chatting, insomma twas awesome :) then, we went at Bett's and illami that was a hilarious morning!! xD playing monopoly, but the guys were taking it really seriously haha and lilly and i were like... erm?! lool xD insomma, my energy left me completely so i just couldnt think in 3 and 4 in the morning!! lool then we spent an hour trying to shush each other up xD maa hilarious!!! the vids are on facebook, they'll crack you up! xD so a BIG thank you to all of you who made it a great night!!! you all looked gorgeous and budaful!! :D

and then 2 days after the social, we receive the results!! my sis and i were expecting them at any minute, but then we started doubting that we were gona receive them... but theeeen.... fran's phne starts ringing, and 2 seconds after mine does during lunch!!! lool and my sister started shrieking before she even opened it, and cried with happiness too, and then after a minute, i came back down to earth and opened my message xD im glad with the results, thank God ^^ He was sooo faithful during that period of stress and frustration!! twas a hard time, but thank God, He pulled me through it :)

i loved mustard seed yesterday, once again!! :D my table 8 mates are just great :P haha and all the others too :D its fun being all gathered there like a famillyyyyy

so yes, praise the Lord!! i wana say a big "thank you" to all my close friends, who've given me support and encouragement all along!!

may our Father bless you all!

xxx

God will lift up your head, dont worry :)

aww friends

so this week was good :) lol had a great time with friends, but sheltered myself from the sun for a little bit cause its dangerous man!! :O i spent a whole week dizzy >.< imma thank God im getting better now!! im really excited for tomorrow [for those who dont know, there is the st dorothy's social xD]

so yesterday, before y4j meeting started, we found a turtle in the middle of the road ta!! i mean, something like this doesnt happen very often, does it? :P and we were all amazed haha we were patting it, shreaking, shouting, laughing, staring at it, moving it until we were attempting to eat it and make it into a turtle soup [jahasraaa >.<] and stuff...it was sleeping, with its head and legs in its shell and it still did not budge!! ara how adorable!! we named it bubbles, and it had a rather cute rear end lol anyway xD

you know how sometimes, we're surrounded by a reallly huge storm, where the problems of life seem to stir us in the face, and we jsut need to go somewhere where we can rest... like the turtle, we need to find shelter somewhere, just to stay in peace somewhere out of the storm... and like the turtle has a shell, we have God's sheltering arms around us, and in whatever circumstance we are, we can be assured that God will give us what we need at that time... sometimes, we just need a shoulder to cry on.. you know how? but then, when we're embraced, we won't be affected that much by the storm, because we know that we're safe in His arms!!

so this is a song which im loving right now :) i havent listened to it in ages, and i dont know why really!! maybe God was treasuring it for me to put it on here :) you never know aye?

Mustard Seeeeeed

waaw guys Mustard Seed was awesome yesterday! xD lol the questions were so so so brain wreaking!! you can ask Philly, Franny, Lilly [haha they all end in a "y" lol sorry random =P] and all those who we've asked to give their opinions and answers xD hilarious, i must add!! i loved the opening, seriously!! cant wait for the meetings coming up!

Would you rather be healthy and homeless, or be sick with AIDS and live in luxury?

we all had different opinions with valid reasons! lol we spent about half an hour for sure discussing this question... what would you rather be, in your honest opinion? i'd go for the former, cause i'd rather live life healthily, and try find a home, maybe God will provide me with a kind heart who can provide me a job or a temporary place where to live...

but then again, as Phil said, its better to have a place where to live, and just live every day like it's the last one.. and she's right too!! but then you can do that even if you're homeless aye? *thinks lol* i mean, wasnt Jesus homeless too? and i dunno, i think that we cannot do anything without health, not even preach about God... if youve got AIDS, you wont have the strength to do anything, then what's the use of having a luxurious house? lol do you get me? haha xD yes! they're brain wreaking questions =P well thank God, we dont have any of these problems!!

Would you rather be known for being a show off or a wimp?

hmm... i think i'd rather be known as a wimp lol cause then i can prove them wrong, i'll prove them that im courageous and brave xD cause if they think im a show off, they wont confront me... they'd think im a stuck up and stuff lol you get me? xD haha well... no question beats the one above, like seriously :P this one was a bit easier xD

Would you rather be beautiful from the inside and ugly from the ouside, or vice versa?

haha i've invented this one xD aw its hard ta! :P i'd want people to think that ive got a nice character and stuff... but then isnt your appearance which meets the eye first? then, if you're ugly from the inside, can't God make you beautiful from the inside? :) like He can soften your heart and you'll be changed aye? but i still havent reached a conclusion xD

cause then, if you're beautiful from the outside, since we're all human, we all think that we need to change something to be more appealing from the outside... so yes.. i think i'd prefer being beautiful from the inside rather than ugly.. cause then, happiness counts right? its better being happy because youve got a lovely heart, than being conceited and watever but being attractive from the outside... aye? xD lool confusing much?

i'll leave you now, guys :] bdw, got a phone!! haha xD thank God for His providence aye!! :D
God bles y'all
xxx

I need You to love me!

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

And I need You to love me, and I,
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have, yeah
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

And I need You to love me, and I need You to love me
And I'll stop this pretending that I can Somehow deserve what I already have Somehow deserve what I already have

And I need You to love me, And I need You to love me

Life with Christ

this video shows what life with Christ really means, a life of hope and joy even in times of turbulence!! God can really do all things :) even change the situations in these people's lives, and even in our personal lives!! isnt that great?! :D

new look xD

hiiiiiii fellows

hope you're all doing well... i changed the layout, hope you like it xD if you've got any suggestions, i encourage you to comment. i'd be glad to see what you guys think xD ive found an awesome site full of great templates for blogger!! :O seriously.. but i havent found the way how to put them up here, so for now i'm staying with this one xD yeah i like it a real lot!! but knowing myself, i'd need to change it in about 2 to 3 months' time haha xD anyway...

so... thank God, i'm having a nice summer :) today, 4 weeks ago, i turned 16!! and i finished olevels a month ago too!! isnt that wow?! time passes... and really quickly, may i add!! so many things have changed during this year!! illa... innumerable things!! when you look back, you can see God's work at hand. it's nice how He leads you to different places! i'm really looking forward to the Mustard's Seed!! :D it's going to be such a great way through which we can get a step further in our faith... so yeah, thank God for His plans!

hmm so i've been thinking about treasures lately.. what are your treasures? do you base your life on those treasures? is it your work, money, friends, family, status, music or your materialistic things? hmm you might think its an easy question, but to tell you the truth, i think its a reall hard one! i remember at the BIG DIG, i had discussed it with God, and whenever i look at the marble, i remember about the treasures i really longed for... but it seems as though they've changed a bit.. hmm and in a way i dont know if it's right or wrong... [yes i am a confusing person =P]

when i opened my bible, i read Matthew 6: 19-21

Treasures in Heaven 19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

and this made me think.. what do i really treasure the most? is it my life or the people in it? or my friendship with God? what do you guys think about treasures? can human beings be kept as treasures? i highly doubt it... but we still do sometimes, and you end up being hurt... hmm.. whats the difference between loving and treasuring? maa all these questions!! haha anyway...

i'll leave you till here for now :) happy birthday June babies!!! :D

blessingss and more blessings from the One on High

xxx

Second Chances :)

yes guys... our God is a God of second chances; a God full of mercy and love for His children!! last satuday, God gave us a second chance... whatever we had done, whatever the traces of unforgiveness in us, He decided to forgive us. He didnt remember what weve done, but He wanted to show us His glory and radiate His forgiveness through us!! He wanted to show us His amazing kindness by healing us, even if we had a hard heart all along...

He doesnt give us a second chance only on saturdays during worship, but every single day!! He gives us a second chance every time we wake up in the morning, when we wake up for a new day, where we can grasp that second chance and move on again!! isnt that great?! ^^

i encourage you to take every single day as another chance to enjoy God's love and respond to His calling :) dont waste ur days!! and this is for me too, cause i want this summer to be challenging!! i want to learn how to stand up for what i believe (quoting bex's poem ^^), i want to make new friends and radiate God's love wherever i go... i want to do challenging stuff this summer!! :D

i want to go to sixth form ekk with courage, to get going with my studies and with the other stuff Jesus wants me to do ^^ hmm but i dont want to just say it, but i want to respond to it.. lets respond to the calling! "non abbiate paura di avere coraggio" -> dont be scared to have courage :)

may Daddy bless u ^^
XxxX

Salvation is Here!!

i feel so revived guys!! and as some of my fellow bloggers said, praise the Lord!!! wow yesterday i regave my life to Jesus, and i feel so renewed in His love!!! :D we really saw God's work at hand yesterday!! :D ekk God reminded me so many things which i had kind of put aside, sort of forgotten in a way... like i had forgotten how powerful God is, i had forgotten that He can truly make miracles through us just by saying His name!! i had forgotten that He's a God of miracles!! i had forgotten that all i need, all i really need, is Him!! i had put aside the fact that He can do all things, all things, and that His power is at work here, now!! its like i had forgotten that God can do amazing things, even today, especially through our generation!!

when we were at soul survivor, Jim Yost had spoken about all the miracles God is doing through His ministry.. and illa that night, i remember, i was so amazed at God's power!!! and last night, through Maria Vadia, He reminded me that He's GOD man!!! He's so great, too big for words to describe!!! He gave me the courage and faith to go out there, and study medicine to become a doctor :D

to tell u the truth, i was beginning to doubt whether i should really study to become a doctor... cause in a way, i was being too scared of diseases. but yesterday, God really showed me that HE CAN DO ALL THINGS!!! now i know that i'm called to be a doctor!! :D ekk He's regiven me the boost to study so then i can go tell the sick that there is HOPE!! that even if medicines were not enough, God's healing hand is more than enough!! praise the Lord for medicines ta jigifieri!! xD but ekk i want to tell the people that even if these have failed HE CAN DO ALL THINGS!! :D He can break the walls of depression, shame, guilt, jealousy, hatred and bring out rivers of love, joy, peace and hope!! THERE IS HOPE!! :D praise the Lord!!! :D





may God be with us and may we let Him work through usall to help Him continue His mission :D

I will love you for you

a beautiful song which has touched my heart so deeply :) its called Love Me of JJ Heller... He will love you for you. He won't remember the times you've decided to go your own way, but He'll remember the moment He died for you, because He believes that you're worth His own life.

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would’ve stayed
And she says…

Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love,

what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
“I know you’ve murdered and I know you’ve lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I...”

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew

God's Everlasting Grace

ive just came across this post from tim hughes' blog. its about God's grace and the power of His forgiveness. when i read it, i imagined a God who is ready to give second chances, whether u feel tired of yourself, or whether u think ure not good enough to follow Him. were all not good enough, and were all unworthy, but we're all special to Him! for Him, we're people "to die for" [so to say].. read the post.. ull be amazed how God can change people's lives thoroughly!! :)

The Men in White

I just had one of the craziest nights of my life. My band and I headed into a maximum-security prison on the outskirts of Dallas, Texas USA to lead worship. Being one of the most violent and serious prisons in the States, we had no idea what to expect.

Throughout the day we lead worship for about 1000 of the most dangerous prisoners. Locked up for horrific crimes. Usually these are the men my heart burns with anger against. People you hear about who rob innocent lives and cause incalculable hurt and destruction. In the world’s eyes here is the scum of the earth. I thought my heart would be hardened against them, I thought I’d despise them. But do you know what my heart went out to them. They were warm, friendly, kind and encouraging. It blew our minds. In the midst of such evil we saw a light; we sensed something of God. The man doing sound for us was serving a 99-year sentence. I hate to think what he must have done to deserve such a sentence and yet He was filled with the joy of Christ. Watching a number of these men passionately worship was one of the most incredible sights of my life. I will never forget one man weeping and throwing his hands in the air as we worshipped and sang about Jesus. Never has the song ‘Amazing Grace,’ felt so appropriate in a set of worship.

Here were a group of men who had sunk to the lowest depths. Living in a prison, with little to do. Watched 24-7, treated with suspicion, deprived of any luxury; many serving time for mistakes made in their youth. Don’t get me wrong most of them deserved to be there, for the safety of society but also for justice sake. But in this terrible environment, some of these men who had found faith in Christ, clung to the hope and the truth that their sins had been washed away. Something truly great, a remarkable gift lavished upon them meant they could be made new - grace. It seemed fitting that they were all dressed in white, their daily uniform. A beautiful picture of what God’s amazing mercy has the power to do.

“Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin…wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.” Psalm 51

I still don’t quite know what to make of it all. To be honest I feel quite choked up about it. How amazing is our God that no one is ever discounted from His redeeming love? How incredible it is that God would have mercy on us, even though we’ve turned our backs on Him time and again? How deep is His love that he would delight in a group of men whom the world despises? We’ve all fallen short of the glory of God, every one of us. We all stand as equal before Him, but for those who’ve called Him Lord, who have surrendered their all; for that person there is grace, hope, a second chance, and a new day.

toughts..and more thoughts >.<

• happiness? what?
• diziness DX
• who?
• what?
• why?
• responsibile?
• what to do?
• anything wrong?
• "draw near to God, and He'll draw near to u..." [james 4: 8]
• ah when?
• i hope so...
• no
• let God reveal His love to me...
• acceptance
• beauty is more than the eye can see
• beautiful in His eyes
• do not conform to patterns of this world
• humility?
• surrender..
• what to do?
• prayer...
• exhaustion
• love till it hurts
• itll be fine
• diet and exercise
• paralysis?
• what?
• where?
• fun?
• dresses?
• "dont let your heart be troubled. trust in God and trust also in me" [john 14: 1]
• questioning or doubting?
• i love You, Jesus
• patience...
• be positive, life's too short to be grumpy...
• good enough?
• "i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" [phil 4: 13]
• hear..hear...
• mind your own business..
• teach me how to love
• i called, You answered and You came to my rescue...
• i'll run till i finish d race, but only wid Your grace..
• what could i do? any help needed?
• am i called to do it?
• trust trust trust
• sleepiness and headaches ><
• d reason i live my life -> Jesus
• its about being His hands and feet
• where?
• now?
• more of this, less of that
• realizes that she has confused d readers xD
• asks pardon..O=)
• good night dears.. maybe next time i wont be this confusing!!

"Don't be afraid. It is I"

It is You

There’s a love we’re all searching,
A love we’re all longing to achieve.
There’s so much confusion in our heads,
And we just can’t find this true love.
We keep on digging and sweating,
But still can’t find this hidden treasure.

We want a love that can embrace us,
A love which will endure us,
The one which will definitely accept us,
No matter what’s going on inside us.

Shattered hearts are searching for this love;
A healing one, a peaceful one.
Desperate souls are crying for this love;
A gentle one, a faithful one.

Then a voice above us starts soothing us,
Kindly assuring us of this love we’re yearning.
This healing and peaceful love,
This gentle and faithful one.

“Do not be afraid, it is I”
Your arm has wrapped mine,
Your pain has healed mine.
“I won’t be afraid, it is You”
My heart has stopped searching,
My soul has stopped crying.
“It is You, it is You”



God bless u friends
xx

till i see You

just a song which has inspired me...
xxx

Perfect Love

hallloo ^^

how are you all doing? :) i'm doing fine hehe.. summer's nice and relaxing, what else ux xD nice birthday too ^^ thanks for evrythin friends.. tehe well now i cant wait to start doing some interesting stuff this summer!! i wana draw, play the piano more, maybe even violin, go out and swim and have fun ux xD, dig deep in my faith wid God, stress about the social haha xD, buy stuff for social but at least the dress is settled haha xD what else? *thinks hard* oh yess get results and apply for schools.... hmmm lool nsoma its gona be a nice summer i feel it ^^....anyway d list goes on and on, but mostly i want to dig deeper in what God wants me to do nd stuff............

so this is a song which i'm loving, tbh :)



I wanna see the broken hearts
Finding hope in God above
I wanna know I'm doing all I can
So with this life, with all I am
No matter what the cost may be
I pray to see your love become our cause

I won't stop believing
You alone are, You alone are God
In You there's freedom

Your love brings me to my knees again
We're gonna bring an anthem of love
We're gonna live for you now

This perfect love, I can't explain
This way of life that has no end
Your mercy satisfies, it's all I need
My purpose found in You alone
To love the lost and bring them home
We were made to glorify our king

Your love brings me to my knees again
We're gonna bring an anthem of love
We're gonna live for you
May your love become my every thought
I wanna know the sound of your heart
I wanna live for you now

Sing You, you bring me life
You bring me hope
You're all I need


blessings xxx

broken hearts?

hii friends :)

so i changed my blog layout and colours and stuff... but decided to make it as it was before xD i dunno, the last one wasnt really how i wanted it to be...i couldnt find something better than the picture of this girl with the smile on her face :) and i like 1 thess 5: 16 cause sometimes its what i need to hear, so well... im gona leave it as it was haha xD

hmm.... so lately i dunno, ive been questioning so much, and still am... like this brokenness of hearts hurts.. i dunno if u know what i mean... so much has been going on.. and i dunno why sometimes i get away from God >.<> blessed be Your name!! mean the song guys ^^ its beautiful!!!



i pray that we'll keep on clinging to God, whether we feel alone or whether we feel that nothing's missing in our life!! i pray that our thirst for God will keep growing, to the point that we truly believe that we can even move the moutains with His power.. may we believe that all we need is Him in our life, and nothing else.

God bless u friends =)
and remember: hope for the hopeless!! [so give hope to the ones who have lost theirs :)]

and dont lose hope :P just 3 days left till olevels are over xD maa it was seriously like a dream [or shall i say a nightmare :P haha]

don't give up on Love

I heard you say you would love for a lifetime
Now you complain a lifetime just doesn't feel right for you
Another casualty of casual love
Another soul out of place, a heart that gave up

Why do we break the promises we make?
Are we living for ourselves?

Don't give up on love and throw it all away
Don't give up on love and let it fall away
When did it become so easy to run from your pain
Don't give up on love and throw it all away

I heard you say you can't change a stubborn heart
I can relate 'cause that's how I feel when I talk with you

Why should it take losing everything
to realize it might be time to change?

Your restless heart won't win 'cause you take but you don't give
And you'll keep moving on until you learn what love is

Don't give up on love and throw it all away
Don't give up on love and let it fall away
Don't give up on love

where has it all gone?

I think of those times
When all I could see was you.
I cry those things
Which I couldn’t hold to myself,
But ones which are now unclear.
Where has it all gone,
Was it me or the walls of mankind?
Has it all gone,
Or is there another way?
Why can’t my soul sing,
If I’m in that place,
The place where I’m meant to be?
Why can’t I understand life,
And all the things it beholds?
Is it that I’m not good enough,
Or that I’ve gone astray?
So many things I acknowledge,
But ones which I can’t believe.
I used to hold onto it,
But where has it all gone?
Have I gone astray,
Or have I stayed here all along?
Where has it all gone?
Can I go back to that place,
Or is it that I’ve got to keep searching?
Was it me the one who disappeared,
Or am I there and I can’t see where?
I do want to stay there,
But where is it?
I try to listen to the sound,
the one which soothes you when you need,
but where has it gone?
Is it me,
or the walls of mankind?

I know you're holding onto me,
now it's my turn to hold onto you.

My Hope

this song has really touched me..hope it does to you too!!

and now some spiritual food:

Psalm 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

=)=)

aaaww guys xD

lool so much has happened this week!! ooo and still to happen *cough* chemistry and bio *cough* haha anyways xD maaa God's been so patient with me and He's been pouring out His help like a totally voltaged river man!! xD haha yes physics, dont ask =P and He's helped me to turn my bad mood into a good mood, which is great ^^ ive realized that i write blogs only when im in a good mood lool quite strange...but yes ta i do get bad moods...but u kno wot...i get out of dem wid God...i really do ^^ maybe u say illami din God tiela u niezel...but yes its true xD cause its rlly Him who rules my life and ive got hope just coz ive got Him :) and He's sent me amazing people and i thank Him for all of u ^^ so yes... dats wot i felt like saying today haha

God bless u friends :) and gd luck for chemi and bio!! haha pray for us all of u who dont have dem!! =P we really need prayers, believe me!!

xxx

oh and yes two amazing songs!! believe me, when i say amazing, theyre awesome xD sing them to worship God :)

quick recap =]

hi guys (=

so quick recap... 3 olevels done xD but the biggies lie ahead of us!! =O we can do it im sure xD dey wont kill us...but the thing is that im a bit behind in my studies =/ so this will be a short post so ill go continue biology... maan im really craving for summer!! well we all are!! so pleaseee guys pray for us coz next week...is THE week!!! meaning... social studies, chemistry, maltese and biology exactly after each other, without a day in between...so yeah, tough PX o well we can do it im sure!! =] so yes.. just a recap haha i'll leave you here from this boring post xD but i wanna say:

(= SMILE =)

read Cettina's latest post!! its really beautiful!!! =) go on the link on the right xD

well toolooo till next post!!

God bless u lotssssssss ^^

xxx

and here is the hand that holds the world of starfield!! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEIdfnh4TjA awesome songs guys!! :D